Year 1

Good evening, guys.

First off, I just wanna thank everyone who came by over the past year. I know this year hasn’t been as…consistent, and I’d hoped, but I’ve learned the hard way over and over again that life isn’t the most consistent force out there. I know I’ve said some things on here that I’m not totally proud of, but I’d like to try to put that behind me, and try to focus on having another good year with you guys.

Doing this blog has helped me brainstorm for Keepers of Balance. And I love sharing the process with you guys. It’s nice to have a place to gush. I do put a lot of love into these posts, even if I don’t have too much to say.

I must say that one of my flaws is jumping onto something without considering EVERYTHING. I do this because I often think too much. I’m trying to find my balance AND my limitations, while still finding the steam to move forward. It’s hard, but I believe that it’ll all be worth it in the end.

I mean, I’m still kinda stunned…one year, over 100 posts, a little over 30 followers, and a grand total of 1,410 pageviews. It doesn’t seem like a lot, but…it means a lot to me. Again, thank you all.

…It’s also hard to believe that it’s only been two years since Utah passed away.

Don’t worry, I’m not gonna go into this whole spiel about how special she was–and still is–to me. You guys know that story, and frankly, I’ve cried enough today. Yep, for me, today was a very sad say. I’ve been emotionally drained all day.

Two odd things DID happen to me today, though. If you guys stalk me on Twitter, you might already know, but I find these two instances so odd and off-the-wall that I had to mention them again.

And for the record, no, I’m not upset at it anymore. I’ve been too drained to get angry, otherwise I would’ve flared up already. I must be part fire. I can get heated too easily.

Anyways, they happened almost in rapid succession, so the order I tell these in is the order it happened.

Earlier today, we had a customer. Yeah, I know, big surprise. When he came in, one of my co-workers had one of her stations on Pandora playing over the speak–to be specific, it was a station that played music mostly from bands like Imagine Dragons, Fall Out Boy, 30 Seconds to Mars, etc. Well, one of the 30 Seconds to Mars songs was playing (not sure which one). This customer was listening to this song, and suddenly declared that it was “hate music”.

For those of you who are familiar with the band (my personal fav is This is War), you know that they make anything BUT hate music. For those who don’t know, they make songs mostly about forgiveness, moving forward, and stroking your inner fire. Again, FAR from hate music.

I also found this…interesting because this is obviously shortly after the riot in Charlottesville. A riot caused by some very hateful people.

Not too long after that, I took a phone call. It was from a restaurant where we deliver bagels to. She places her order, and I’m trying to keep up (she had a very thick accent, so I was trying my hardest to understand). I was confirming her order when she huffed and confirmed it back before calling me…something. I’m not 100% sure, but I think I might’ve been insulted in a different language. Arabic, I think, but again, I’m not too sure. She was rather rude, and hung up almost immediately after that.

Again, I’m not mad–hell, I’m not even totally sure that it was even an insult. I just read the tone and plus, I’ve talked to this woman before. She’s often quite rude and hasty. Even if I was sure, again, I was too emotionally drained by the time these things happened, so I couldn’t have gotten mad, even if I wanted to. These are just interesting things that happened during my day.

Which, by the way, ends here. I’ve had a long week. I’m ready for my weekend. I hope I’ll get a chance to talk to you all soon, and, once again…

THANKS FOR A GREAT YEAR!!

~Arrivederci!~

August has Arrived

July came and went. Over all, not a bad month, not a good month.

It’s going to be a year on the 15th since I started this blog. Been unsteady, but still a hell of a ride.

I finished the Leverage novel series and moved onto another series I’ve been wanting to read for a while. Scott Cawthon, the creator of Five Nights at Freddy’s also wrote a book tying into the lore of the games. So far, there’s two books available, with a third on the way. I picked up the first one earlier today, and have been chipping through it for a bit. So far, I like it, but I’m not far enough to give a real opinion, yet.

Anyways, I’m not sure what this month will bring me. Regardless, I look forward to it!

~Arrivederci~

Getting it Back

This is gonna be a shorter post, mostly because I don’t really have too much to say, here.

I had the urge to read through and edit the new Episode #13 (used to be Episode #8). Between that, doing some reading (on the last of the Leverage novels I mentioned last time), and spending some time on other passing “projects”, I’ve gotten myself re-motivated to look back at Keepers of Balance. Episode #13 is honestly one of my favorite Episodes. I know I’ve gushed before, so I’ll try to avoid it for now, but it really captured what I wanted KoB to be like on an Episode-to-Episode basis.

Anyways, our time to bomb the house is coming very soon–hopefully this Thursday. So that means, depending on how the day goes, I might not get to a Thursday post this week. I’ll be sure to let you guys know on Friday what’s going on.

Anyways, regardless of what happens, I’ll talk to you all again on Friday.

~Arrivederci~

A Week’s Passing

Hey, everyone…I’m back.

*crickets chirp*

…Ja. Business as usual.

This week has been…rough, emotionally and mentally. Moreso for Niax than me. I was kinda happy to step away from anything writing-related for a while…with one exception that I’ll gloss over in a moment.

It seems so…surreal. Just last week, I was typing up about how things were gonna happen with our doggo that might cause me to stop posting for a while…I didn’t expect it to happen the very next day.

I think you guys could tell from my Tweet and notice on Wed…the worst did happen. Dylan, our lovable dog, passed away on Wednesday, July 12th, 2017.

I mentioned in a few posts before about how Dylan’s health has been declining rapidly since we got back from vacation. We found him with fresh bite wounds, and he stopped eating around that point, too. Yes, we did have people trying to keep an eye on him, so he wasn’t alone…but it still shocks me that he declined so quickly when we got back. I also mentioned the numerous amounts of fleas we found on him. Well…a little too late to deal with that. Wednesday was supposed to be a normal, vet check-up (well…somewhat normal). However, according to Niax, when he woke up, he found Dylan totally unresponsive (even though he seemed fine when I left for work earlier that morning). He was having seizures. He had to be carried to the car. By the time my husband and his mother got there, the course of action was clear. Niax felt Dylan’s very last heartbeat.

I got the news at around 10am, via text. I had to step out from work. It came by too fast, and for me….the worst thing was that I didn’t get to say goodbye.

It sounds selfish, but I really wanted to be there. I felt like I needed to be there. Even now when I think about it…it still breaks my heart. I can–no, I do–understand that things happened fast for Niax, too, and he wanted me to be there as well…but, like with the difficult choice I made for Utah two years prior, things happened. We miss him every day. It’s been kinda hard for us to drop our habits involving Dylan. Well, I can’t speak 100% for Niax, but for me, it’s been a little more trying. I usually glance at the clock around 6-7pm, making a mental note to either remind Niax to feed Dylan, or for me to feed him myself. We’re also used to letting him outside the moment we get home (that’s when Niax would have his “after-work” smoke from his vape). I keep glancing over to his favorite couch, making sure he wasn’t biting himself too much. This morning, Niax and I looked over to the water dish to see that it was still pretty full. Dylan would drink a lot more than Annabelle. Just the small things.

Sometimes, the smallest things have the biggest impact.

But aside from not sleeping well, we’re doing okay…for the most part. Work has helped keep us distracted, and we usually try to keep each other company. I feel kinda bad about this, but I’ve been trying to take more care of Annabelle as a result. He got a flea bath on Thursday (supposed to be getting another one very soon), and I’ve been using the flea and tick comb I ordered. We’re also gonna treat ourselves a little this week: we’re scheduled to see Spiderman: Homecoming tomorrow.

I haven’t been able to work much on KoB at all. Everything I felt about the series seemed to evaporate at that point. I still think about it, but I’ve lost the will to work on it, for a time.

However, that doesn’t mean my creative thought has totally crashed (or that Keepers of Balance is cancelled).

I’ve been trying to keep myself inspired in some way/shape/form. Mostly drifting about YouTube videos reviewing/analyzing some shows/video games I have an interest in (whether love or hate). I watched a bit of an anime with Niax, and I picked up the only three published Leverage novels in existence. As I’ve gushed about before, I LOVE Leverage. I love the concept, I love the acting, I love the music, I love the writing, I love the characters and their interactions/motivations–I LOVE IT ALL. If I could find a way to express my love for this series in more ways than CapsLock/Bold/Underlines/Italics/all the above, I would do it in a heartbeat. I’ve actually been thinking about writing/recording a series where I talk about each episode in length–what I like, what I don’t like, what I can draw inspiration from, what I observe, that kind of stuff. I can’t call it a “review”…it’s way too biased. I will admit that because of my love for this show, I may tend to overlook some flaws that could make or break a show for some people. In turn, I love the Leverage novels that came out around 2010-2013. I highly suggest giving all three a read, regardless if you’re familiar with the show or not. They may be considered pieces of fan-fiction, but they were written and made with a lot of love. And that’s what I want to interject into Keepers of Balance the most. I’ll provide a list of each novel and author (if you care to look them up, which you should), embedded with a link of each to their respective Amazon.com links:

(This is in no particular order, by the way)

The Con Job: Matt Forebeck
The Bestseller Job: Greg Cox
The Zoo Job: Keith R. A. DeCandido

I’m currently on The Con Job–finished The Bestseller Job earlier this morning. They’re not very long reads–about 4hrs each. But, again, all recommended for light reads.

Anyways, I hope to get back into the swing of things soon. Revisiting one of my favorite novel series has helped a lot, and it helps that every passing day gets a little bit easier. For those who did show support in their own way, I thank and appreciate you. Looking forward to the next several blog posts.

~Arrivederci~

 

Maybe I should just call these “Logs” or something…

Today wasn’t that bad. Actually, it was pretty smooth, for the most part. Actually, the only things that went wrong today was the fact that I was getting hurt (physically) a lot today. I sneezed earlier and hit my head pretty bad on a cooler door (right on a screw, too). Niax kept accidentally elbowing me all day, and I nearly had a plastic container fall on top of my head. I hit my head pretty hard, but I’m fine, for the most part. Just the usual after-work social exhaustion/hunger. And yes, I did just get home at the time of me writing this. I usually try to get started on these posts sooner than later, especially on a work day, because I know how tired I can get, and my tendency to fall asleep soon after getting home. It also helps me mellow out, and reset my brain from all the tedious, tiring social-people-stuff-I-have-to-do. I used to do the same thing when I was in school–I would come straight home and eat and usually hop on the PC. Plus, it was usually just me and my mom by that point. I had friends, but we usually didn’t hang out for too long after school, and if we did, they would just come over to my place, since it wasn’t even a block away.

Anyways, for the time being, the splicing is more or less done. Now I just have to fill in the gaps and edit some more, obviously. I’ve kinda been working on Episodes #2 and #3 simultaneously. It’s been easier for me, mostly because they did swap places. Other than tweaking some plot lines for other Episodes and gathering ideas from all sorts of different sources (as well as getting back into Diablo III), things have been progressing in my usual slow pace. I’m trying to keep myself as calm and collected as possible. I also have to reconnect with my possible school to see what my status is. So with all that said and done, I’mma get some food and get some writing done. Have a good day, guys.

~Arrivederci~

Log Date: 7/4/17

Happy 4th of July, everyone! Even though the Declaration of Independence wasn’t signed until August 2nd, still, take this day to enjoy our freedom or whatever!

Today’s been a good day. I grilled steak, ribs, corn, potatoes, and green beans. All of which turned out really good (though, I had to throw the potatoes in the oven for a bit).

I wasn’t entirely idle today, though. I decided to switch Episodes 2 and 3 around. Since Episode #2 had higher stakes than Episode #3, I decided that the plot and story should be switched. This means, of course, a lot more editing for me.

Aside from those major changes, not much else to say. I hope you all enjoyed the holiday–and I hope none of you had any freak accidents with fireworks! Seriously, if you guys do…then make sure you get it on camera and send it to me, okay?

(No, seriously guys…be safe)

~Arrivederci!~

I mean, seriously, what am I supposed to NAME this thing?

The massive heat wave continues. My obsession with Gravity Falls continues. More of this, at 11pm.

…Let’s pretend 11pm is right now. Sorry for the bad “joke”. I’m actually really excited. I completed my FAFSA today, and was on the phone with my Admissions Advisor learning about the student portal and stuff like that (online courses, remember?). I’m only two steps away from being enrolled. I planned to start in November, but I might bump it up to September or August. It all depends on whatever “financial aid” I get. I’m not smart/talented enough for scholarships, but there are other options.

Also, I’m really enjoying Gravity Falls. It’s a charming show, fulled with mystery to boot. Also, a beautiful art style. Sometimes, it almost feels as if it’s a satire of mystery shows–which is something else I heavily appreciate. I DID watch the seasons in reverse (there’s only two seasons, sadly), so I’m currently making my way through Season 1 (the series finale gave me feels). It’s also a nice change of pace for me.

Alsoooo….I’m getting something awesome in the mail, soon~ I want to show that off, but for now, I’ll show you guys these! (These pics are quite unrelated from the awesome thing I’m getting in the mail)

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I hate bees. However, I couldn’t walk away from a shot like this. I crept in close, and got a few good shots of him collecting pollen. These two are my favorites. My phone (dubbed “PalmPower”. Yes, I name EVERYTHING. I’m weird) takes oddly good pictures.

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It’s June, the month of very colorful (but mostly pink) flowers. I came across this a week or so ago while walking to the store. I felt sorry for not taking a picture of it when I had the chance. I was out again today, and I saw that it was still in full bloom. I didn’t want to miss this chance.

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How much is that kitty in the window?
I wonder if he is for saaaale?!~

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OH SHEET! HE SPOTTED ME!

Okay, okay, this is the last one. It’s been so hot, that all that Annabelle (that #CatLog in the window (who is not for sale)) and Dylan (Doggo that belongs to Niax who is forever trapped in a cone) have been doing is wandering around and “melting” (laying in limp, semi-flat positions on the floor/dryer) on various spots on the floor.

…and dryer. But also, it really sucks if your microwave decides to die on you and you have to use the oven/stove to heat up your food.

Anyways, enjoy! And stay cool!

~Arrivederci!~